#at 4 months it's the longest one. but that makes sense. given. ya kno. it's my dad.

[orcelito]

God, what even is my "reasons this hasn't been updated in 4 and a half months" list anymore hfkshdj

I think we're at: wrote a smut fic, got a new girlfriend, got into bg3, quit my job I had for 8 years, my dad fucking died, got Throat Bleeding Disease, got into crochet, started watching way too much anime, got into Stardew Valley again...

🤔🤔🤔🤔 things sure have been busy, huh?

[dyrwoodan]

11 questions

rules: answer 11 questions, write 11 questions, tag 11 people. tagged by @highevre and @sidesteppin like many many months ago i bet u forgot griff and i did too but here i am. thank you both lmao tagging if y’all want: @henantier @weisshavpt @eledhrim @arlathen @nirn-root @kajgott @bosmerie @jennystahl @elvhenstar @drthamen @gwynbleidd @lavellane @roguefatebinder @nordxz

here are my 11 questions and under the cut are the,, 22 answered ones because it’s real long

favourite flower and tree? whyyy

milk chocolate? dark? white? with orange? nuts? strawberries? which do you prefer!!

if you could move to a fictional place in a heartbeat where would it be?

any specific Woter you love? rivers? lakes? the ocean?

do you like the sun?

do you believe in cryptids?

something you did, however big or small, that made you feel proud of yourself recently?

any fictional character you'd like to have as a parent? or a guiding figure? mentor? whichever you prefer

if you had to choose to become one video game protagonist which one would it be?

 what is your favourite scent?

any funny/surreal/scary dream you would like to share?

1. If you had to get a piercing, what would you get?

def one of those eyebrow ones. like i never seriously thought about getting one, i don't feel like i need it but,, i like how the eyebrow ones look so probably that. idk what's it called. i imagine this kinda circle, like around the end of the eyebrow. does that make sense

2. Favorite time of day + weather?

very early mornings. maybe because i don't even experience them often but when i do they just feel so special and eerie and something about them makes me really content. well, unless i am woken up by an alarm and i have to go somewhere real early, then i'm fucking pissed. as for the weather. i like autumn/winter when it's finally cold but not freezing, not a single ray of sun, just fog and clouds, no rain or wind. just fog and cold. OR in winter, freezing cold, snowing, again no wind i hate wind.

3. Board games, card games, or jigsaw puzzles?

board games! my fave is probably something like monopoly but it's with horses? you buy horses and do stuff and it's fun because i always win and my family refuses to play it with me

4. Opinion on wearing socks to bed?

not a fan. feet prison.

5. Is there a childhood storybook or tale that stood out to you or one that you remember every so often?

yea yea yea. this one book, in my language and it wouldn't really have a translation because the title is a made up word. my mom would read it to us and i remember very little but i remember it was quite scary at times? it was very... surreal, dream-like or kinda nightmare inducing. idk what is it even about. i think there were some children and they were playing a game? and that game was scary? idk i just remember surreal images i had in my head

6. Seasons ranked from worst to best?

summer, spring, autumn, winter. but i hate spring and summer almost equally.

7. Any pets?

my cat, my pal, my best friend. a doge. two other cats.

8. A band that you can’t stop listening to?

apparently imagine dragons. because i've known this band for the longest time and i'm still listening to it? like i abandoned Everything i used to listen to, except for this band. like i always come back to them during points in my life ya kno. not rn tho but i still love them

9. Any place you would like to visit at least once, if given the chance?

iceland :/ the black beaches, the volcanoes, the hills, the glaciers, the sheep.....

10. Hobbies/Pastimes?

oh you know it. games n stuff. painting i guess. reading but evidently only in autumn and the rest of the year i'm illiterate. photography i Guess. mediocre writing.

11. Coffee or tea? Any favorite order for either of those?

just tea thank u. i dislike coffee. i like green, black and white tea. herbal infusions, lemon balm and linden mostly. herbal with honey and the others with sugar. if i'm feeling fancy i add a bit of milk to my green/black tea.

1. What’s one of your irrational fears?

i feel like all of them are irrational. like, they have a reason, they are deeply rooted but when i look at them rationally i'm like.. why. insects and spiders for one? like they are so small and so harmless and i'm terrified. hospitals and doctors and medicine and needles and everything connected with that. like,, legally they can't do anything to me i know that but i'm still terrified and i would literally rather bleed out after being stabbed than go to the hospital.

2. What do you love most about your favorite ship?

morrigan and caiwyn. ok. i talked about it a bit before but i will talk about it again. that morrigan makes caiwyn feel free. he knew a lot already but he was still restricted by living in the circle. so he never met an apostate until morrigan, in the wilds. and it opened up his mind a bit more and inspired him. like, you can be a mage and be outside the circle? that's cool, i want that. and she simply represents to him what it means to be free and that it's possible. also that they are both selfish bastards but they found each other and they care about each other so much and they are loyal beyond grave. that caiwyn is not loyal to anything and anyone... but to morrigan. that you'd think both of them are incapable of love but they both have reasons for appearing that way and Despite all that they Are capable of love. that none of them expects it either, none of them realizes they are in love because how would they know it if they never felt it? and it's new to them but they both take that.. leap. because both of them are secretly wary, they both think this is just a fling and deep down they are afraid it will end eventually. until they realize it isn't and that they won’t let it end. and it takes them some time but they make it work.

3. What would be an ideal morning for you?

without an alarm waking me up. no one in the house. i'm alone. it's dead quiet. it's raining subtly. i feed my cat and make myself some tea. i go out to sit on my porch, my cat purrs in my lap. i stare into the woods and the morning mist forming in between the strands of grass. it's quiet and i feel at peace with being alive. and my vampire/mothman/creacher partner is emerging from the mist with a bag of freshly baked goods they went to buy to the nearby village. we greet and eat breakfast together in quiet understanding. and they ask me how i am and i say good and i mean it.

4. Name one or more fictional characters that are 100% your type.

morrigan (dao), serana (skywim), manon (tog book). kinda goth? yellow/vampire eyes? blood aesthetic somewhere? kinda mean? not to be h*rny on main but that's hot.

5. What is the most moving/emotional experience you’ve ever had in a video game?

ah. i remember it as if it happened yesterday. when i played da2 for the first time. for some reason i sided with the templars, i think i thought i would be able to betray them and backstab them, that's what i wanted to do. then i had to kill all the mages, i thought i would be able to avoid that somehow. and if that weren't already emotionally a lot for me.... i sent anders away and then he showed up again and i had to kill him?? that was like the worst thing that i ever had to do. idk what happened, i knew where my alliences were, i loved anders. and yet i made a series of stupid decisions and man i cried so much that day. but like there were so many other experiences, this one was just from the top of my head. like generally,, bitch i am moved by anything in video games. video games probably made me cry more than books and i like to think i read more books than i played video games and i cried while reading books but still. video games man...... so many moments from skyrim made me cry too. in da2 and dao... SO many.

6. Cats or dogs? And what is your favorite thing about them?

cats!! that they are little bastardly creachers. they don't listen to no master and i respect that and i understand them. i'm unable to listen as well. they are soft and cute and they like to cause trouble and they have so many personalities, they can be broody and antisocial or they are cuddly or they are talkative. round... soft... fluffy... the eyes... the little teeth.... paws.... they have healing skills too. little magicians. they are also smart while simultaneously so dumb. i love them.

7. If you could press a button and instantly learn a new language, which would it be? How many times would you press it?

norwegian. i would probably press it very slowly, once. both because i'm not sure about my choice and also because.. learning languages is fun for me personally so i would hesitate if i really want to skip the learning process? but then again, i'm also lazy so, yea

8. Do you have OCs? Who is the first and who is the closest to your heart?

oh first would have to be,, one oc from an original thing. but since i'm not talking about that here... ravell? from skyrim? i think she is the oldest. AND closest to my heart. like i switch in between ocs i hyperfixate on but i love ravell just a Little Bit more than the others?? probably because she has been with me for the longest time and helped me a lot.

9. What are some of your favorite book/movie/video games quotes?

oh so so many but i will mention a few!! "i'd say i was being punished, but i know that the world doesn't punish wicked people. we make our choices and take what comes and the rest is void." from dishonored, spoken by daud "if more people valued home above gold this world would be a merrier place." the hobbit, thorin "maybe it is time to leave this hatred behind. it's poison, yet i continue to swallow it." da2, fenris "...folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didnt. they kept going. because they were holding on to something..." lotr, sam "we live and breathe words ... it was books that made me feel that perhaps i was not completely alone." clockwork prince, will "the world will be saved and remade by the dreamers" empire of storms, aelin

10. If you had the power to instantly make a prequel/sequel/spin off/remake to a video game/movie/tv show of your choice, what would it be and why?

dao and da2 sequel that isn't dai because i don't like it. dishonored (2012) sequel that isn't whatever came out after it because it just doesn't have the same Vibes skyrim 2?? skyrim 2. because i love it. remake of da2 maybe? so that it has at least some charm that dao had? dishonored prequel would be really fucking cool too i love the world of dishonored.

11. Name a character whose aesthetic and style you identify with.

like apart from my blatantly self-inserted ocs,, maybe fenris from da2? in a way? or dorian from throne of glass. we really vibing, me and dorian and fenris. i don't really know though? like i can relate to canon characters but idk about the aesthetic, so probably only dorian and fenris are the closest. maybe even anders? because uhhhh cat. and we both dress like sewer goblins ig, no offence anders.